Still in that abstract funk. I need to start eating better and exercising more. I’m getting back to that dull tired all the time that pretty much means both of those things. I keep getting up by promising myself I can take a nap later if I want. maybe I should actually take the nap today, since my brain doesn’t seem to be up to anything deep or useful like the job search.
Ugh, I feel like such a feeling-sorry-for-myself blob. so what’s that made of? nausea (physical) anxiety (mental), unfocusedness (avoidance?) guilt (definitely avoidance) enervation (all 3?) anger (self-directed). and a great deal of what seems like pointless self-analysis.
I was doing all right helping out with physical projects the last couple days.
Screw this, I’m going to go take that nap.